Surprise I’m def leaving Put the ish here behind me Going to the A Nothing here for me and my son. Moving along with my life. Good bye baby daddy Good bye stress Good bye ratchet niggas Going have a big party at my place when I leave. Welp preparing got a list of stuff I have to do before I leave

I try to stay above all people

I have an obession and phobia with being fat. Biggest fear of my life.

I want all the clothes, jewlery, shoes and accessories.

When I see tumblr post I be wanting the clothes I see

Aiming to be a size 12 or size 10

I let people influence alot of my decisions espically family.

I get stressed out over the easiest and stupidiest shit.

I really want to be an Army wife.

I constantly cry cause of all the inconstencies in my life.

I constantly think on how to make my life better.

Constantly  making plans to get through it all

Messed up my life thinking I was in love and had a baby

But I love my son.

Pisses me off that I still can’t live my teenage life how I want and I know a bunch of moms my again that still go out.

Striving to fit into what I think is the cool thing. (iN Bold)

Good Night <3

It’s been 4 years without my big brother. He stays on my mind constantly. It’s like I can’t breath knowing you not here. I wish my son could of met his uncle. The worst feeling when part of your heart is gone. He didn’t have to go. I pray that you watch over us. I love you Corrie Le’Mar Shade…..Happy Birthday Bruh!!!!!

Its rough trying to work, go to school, && be a mom. Sometimes I really give up. But my problem I always give up when it’s hard.